Overthinking

It's when your mind starts off with a simple thought, then gives way to other kinds of thoughts, until you realize you're thinking about a multitude of things and everything goes haywire inside your mind. These thoughts go down deep in the recesses of your being. They start to pull at your heartstrings, and you are left feeling a number of emotions all mixed together. How can one thought make you feel a whole lot of pain, sadness, heartbreak, or the other way around, like happiness and elation?



I try not to think too much. But as I lay down at night, that's where the trouble begins. Alone in my room, staring at the dark ceiling, my mind wanders off elsewhere and this ends with me overthinking.



I am consumed with my own thoughts turned into feelings.


It is my fault why I get affected.



Some nights, I am like this. Maybe I do get worried about things too much, or too happy. They say not to feel super happy, because it will give way to sadness, like a sugar crash. So, I try not to let my thoughts overpower me.


The mind has thousands of thoughts at the same time.


But choose your thoughts well.

Seven Things (post # 7)

Seven Things About Me:


1. I'm named after the character of Eliza Doolittle from "My Fair Lady". My mom is a big fan of Audrey Hepburn. I've only come to know about Audrey Hepburn lately. She's wonderful.


2. As a child, I loved the baked potatoes from Wendy's. I never seem to get tired of them.



3. My favorite piece of clothing are striped tops. They seem to go with almost everything. Helps you achieve that fashionable look without going overboard.


4. I like being in the dark at night and thinking about things until I fall asleep.


5. My favorite subject in my BS Psychology classes is Abnormal Psychology.


6. I have a faint scar on my right knee that I got when I fell off a bike. I was 9 years old then.


7. My favorite numbers are 7 and 9. Odd numbers have an extra special digit to them.

Seven Books I've Read:


1. Harry Potter series


2. The Witches (Roald Dahl)


3. Millennium series by Stieg Larsson


4. The Five People You Meet in Heaven (Mitch Albom)


5. Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom again)


6. Wish You Well (David Baldacci)


7. The Hunger Games trilogy


...Okay, I have to admit that some of my reading fare are based on popular lit. I want to read more of the classics like The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath, 1984 and Animal Farm by George Orwell, and Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger.

Seven Things I Don't Like in People:

1. Pretentiousness


2. Shallowness


3. Rude sense of humor


4. Those who put down others


5. People who think the whole world revolves around them


6. Those who take advantage of others


7. People who likes to make you feel bad about yourself

Seven Things You Can See in My Dorm Room Table:


1. 3 rolls of Washi tapes (colored purple, green, and red)-I love Washi tapes!


2. My planner


3. Some folders containing notes


4. A pen holder


5. Laptop


6. Earphones (when I listen to music on my laptop/mobile phone)


7. A bottle of almond nuts

Seven Plans During/After College:


1. Attend a music festival this summer break/road trip with friends


2. Learn to cook better


3. Get my dream internship at one of the university departments


4. Get my diploma


5. Find a stable job


6. Travel the world


7. Find love

Right now, I'm already working as an intern, and I hope this can add some substance to my resume as a fresh grad later on.



That's all for my seven things post!

Frozen is so overrated nowadays

But I can't help but post this reminder:

For when you really need to let it all out.

Corkboard Musings

I used to have a corkboard when I was in junior high up to high school. It was really filled to the brim, containing cut-out pictures from magazines, letters pasted together to make words, photos of me and my friends, and post-it notes. I was really into the corkboard designing thing back then. I still have a corkboard in my dorm room, but it's mostly filled with schedules of tests, study periods, and some social gatherings. But gone are those celebrity pictures from my college corkboard. Looks like I outgrew my celeb fangirl stage and was replaced with being more of a bookworkm.

A corkboard in your room is like a representation of who you are; your favorites things, dreams in life, and the people you cherish. I think back on my high school corkboard with fondness, knowing that I am growing up a little. But I'm also reminded to keep that youthful zest in me, and to continue enjoying being young and carefree while I still can.

(corkboard not mine)

Shifting Gears and Taking Chances

I shifted majors two years ago. From BS General Sciences, I took up BS Psychology, after realizing that it's what I really wanted to study. Not only that, there are more career options for BS Psych grads. It's good to know that someone with a Psych degree under her belt will always be respected in whatever career field she chose to take.





So I talked to my parents about it. Thankfully, they were very supportive of my decision, except that I'll have to wait for another year before I can graduate. Right now, I'm done with minor subjects, and all I'm taking up now are majors, along with some advanced classes. It isn't easy balancing out studying, working part-time, and social life. But these circumstances shifted my mindset and habits, and this was a major factor in helping me grow up a little.





I didn't regret anything, except that I got separated from my usual crowd (my batch mates). But that opened up something else for me. I still see them from time to time, but I'm also led to new friends as well. The good thing about college is that you really don't have a permanent crowd to hung out with, unlike high school. My social circle expanded a little, along with new friends, like that artsy girl, my humorous seatmate and study buddy in Abnormal Psych classes, and that hot guy who turned out to be better than having a fling with.





I enjoyed my Psych classes and the idea of doing anything I want after graduation. Either I end up in an educational setting (school) or venture somewhere that's a 180 degree turn from my college major. Whatever happens, I am going to create my own fate and I'll do my best to make myself happy.

Not That Easy

Nobody said it was easy, so that song goes. Nothing in life is ever a cinch. Dreams take long before they are fulfilled. Feelings don't go away in one snap. Living itself isn't very easy, as you have to deal with whatever is thrown right at you.

I heard from my grandfather that life isn't easy. Living was sad for him, as he served during the war, got married, and lost one of his three children. But in spite of that, there's always a reason to smile and be thankful, as he said. For enduring the hardships that life brings, there's always something to reward you with, like kindness and love.

Life isn't always fair and easy, but it's sure is worthwhile.

Don't Overthink About What Others Think of You

...Less stress

(photo not mine)